The voice of my generation

Happiness and sadness intermingle in our hearts Sometimes it feels like we might be falling apart Yet we are reminded of your strength Fight the good fight and never be ashamed A mother and best friend We did our best to be there until the end some of us Sad and a little scared wondering whhere to go from here Then your words pop out of nowhere Something you told your little girl once when she came to this grieving place You've gone to the lords embrace He holds you in eternal grace we can't wait until the time when we can join you and see our lords face You may not be here standing by us but your spirit and our lord god will guide us We are never truly alone you'll be watching over all of us until it is our time to come home

Years ago I left you alone I walked away thinking I would never have to atone Little did I realize some day tears would be in my eyes I would be caught by surprise all along it was you a love hidden but true devistation takes over years too late and miles apart it was you I'd loved from the start you can't turn back time you can't remove the pain You wanted to hang on and I wanted to run scared, alone I thought I was giving you freedom Instead I only caused pain I don't think I can ever remove that shame

Dreams and reality they are all the same to me darkness and light I need only open my sight power and strength given to me in her name rise above the pain destroyed and now renewed pride and deception cast asunder only I can hold myself under with her light she guides me darkness can no longer blind me

Crying and sighing and dying on the inside while on the outside I wear a mask of happiness Seeking a soul that left me long ago or maybe I just think so I don't know struggling to rebuild a dream that crumbled against the stream of time passionately hating all that I am while still loving the woman I might've been Clutching at my broken heart trying to mend the tears Meanwhile I still feel all the fear the loneliness of all these long forgotten years You are who you are we are constantly told Build on that and you can still grow It's just so hard you know

Release me into eternity confined to this dismal reality grasping at puppet strings wanting release of my conciousness struggling to escape this form that holds me unable to see my essential being I'm pleading with an unknown all powerful being release me into eternity

Drawn into the depths of doom I cry my tears of shame knowing nothing of the truth but my name lost in a vast world of lies wandering my soul homeless this world giving me no gain I reach for the surface so many have claimed to see unable to grasp that reality

Emotions set adrift feeling lost in a dark abyss tears of loneliness quietly fall I wonder if you ever knew me at all I gave you my heart and my trust now all I feel is shunned I put on a pretty face worst part is all I feel is hate the worst kind of hate there is the kind that tears you up inside this is all my fault I know I'm constantly telling myself so you left me now I just have to accept and let go Sad thing is I'm not sure I can Oh who the hell cares I probably don't

What do I do I'm so in love with you I wonder if you even notice this truth I hurt inside I can't compete with your pride Lost in what feels a hopeless reality you make jokes about happliy never after you don't even notice the pain it causes me do you even care are you just pretending I'm giving you my everything yet it feels like I'm less than nothing

Constantly digging examining the dirt obsessing over riches that are yet to be discovered searching the site daily waiting for this curse of being unable to find a secret chamber fearful of the unexplained finally found the tomb filled with artifacts the mummy sits up in it's coffin I run from this dreaded place thus the events did unfold Unfortunately all I feel is shame

Crimson spectres floating They're dripping and bloating Creatures with no feeling All they care for is feeding Never heard of these beings I'm sure since it requires gaming D&D and fantasy a gamers exstacy Don't wanna have to face these things Otherwise you may find your character fading

colors on an easter egg bunnies in the petting zooo oh how lovely are these things Bright sun shining bright stars twinkling at night running barefoot in the mud Oh all of these I do so love giddiness and laughter Happy ever after lollipops and gumdrops storybooks abound children telling secrets Oh how I love these sounds

moonlight shines on the undead They begin to move from their graveyard beds hunting for prey They must survive Unfortunately this is the only way Beauty faded and gone Only evilness lingers on the fanged ones they cannot survive the day So only the night holds sway and all innocence instinctively knows that it must run away

dreams of ponies flying through buttercups childish laughter ringing Poles made from candycanes a town filled with children laughing and singing Innocence displayed on each and every place not a single frown on a face no adult to be seen these are the signs of a childs most wonderful dreams Candy everywhere no food to spare it's all been eaten everyone willing to share

Screams echo in the mist Wolves fly over the land a women lay dead His power she could not withstand torn in half by claws yet whole and staring up lifeless wolves begin to feed on limbs the evil creature who killed her he watches from a distance His minions he could trust Nothing would be left untouched soon destroyed and ripped and torn to shreds there would be no evil evidence

butterflies in sunshine birdsnest resting above little chirps echoing calling for their mothers love summer soon to begin heat warming my cheeks breeze weaving through trees I just love this peaceful serenity Carefree and happy letting out part of the childishness in me This is all a part of spring

Trees sway in darkness The wind howls through the door the grass waves it's teasing fingers sadness washes upon my shore hopelessness surounds me love knows me no more the elements of feeling feeling such dreary elements I rip through the fragments of time Just as they rip through me The elements corroding all all that I thought I'd be

A touch of everlasting lust Her desire sparked by inner fire she wanted him so bad yet freedom she did not have bound and shaking he was in complete command she wanted him so bad she struggled and she moaned she could not wait till they were one submission filled her bones she wanted him so bad he gave her release in orgasm she weeped equals once more she had wanted him so bad

I drift down memory lane I feel little pain I remember so many things times when you've been beside me times when you couldn't be I remember all the laughter I remember all the love I remember when you and I were the only ones I remember all the days and the nights when I needed you yet you were always by my side as we've grown together whether we were apart or alone my best friend through the best and the worst who else could I turn to when life threw a curve who else understood my hurt You were my strength when I had none you were my joy when we were having fun my best friend through so many years you've been there for so many things nothing pulls us apart not time nor distance I can only give it three words I love you

You touch me You fuck me you don't have a place to you lick me you nip me I never wanted you to you suck me you fuck me still I wonder why it's ok with you you shame me you lay claim to me Yet I never gave permission to you your ever lying face keeps telling me it's ok put yourself in my shoes Would you want someone to do this to you you take me you rape me yet you wonder why I hate you

Lost in confusion what have you done to me my mind is whirling despair is unfurling You won't let me be reach out to me Please don't leave me save me from this unreal fantasy you are all that's left of my reality Lost in a vortex grasping at anything hanging on for dear life unable to see where have you gone to I need you it's apparent you don't need me yet you just won't let me be

I trusted you you tore my heart in two tears of shame tears of pain I'll never be the same I just have no clue I tried to please I tried to be the person you wanted me to be Now I can't open up to you I can't tell you my fears you really don't care I needed you My strength is lacking here I am apparently slacking I tried so hard satisfaction was not in your vocabulary of words

a lingering touch it eases my emptiness I needed this so much a release of pain to feel again my walls crumble my heart opens wide finally able to let emotion inside yes I've felt though not as wholly as wonderfully as I do now thankfully I had a guide you never once left my side my angel when I saw no light my sensibility when none was in sight you brought hope when all I felt was pain you helped me to live again forever my best friend

Shivering in the night oh the tears of fright the pain of being alone feeling hopeless and forlorn unable to let anyone in unwilling to begin again suffering my demons alone I want a place that I can call home home a recurring theme sometimes I wonder if I merely dream hoping that someone will rescue me maybe it's time I did the rescuing maybe it's time I threw out a hand and ask someone to help pull me back I'm tired so tired of the resentment the fear and anger finally the dam bursts and I am in tears it's time to begin again this time don't let me give in

My head is spinning the world coming to a crashing halt Falling in love with you I knew I was screwed locked in a hopeless need captured in the sands of time they spill down over me Filled with shame and despair I'm not good enough I'll never win you may know I exist But my love isn't enough you want more I'm standing here yet rare is it that you notice me wishing you felt the same but some days it's like you don't even know my name

Battle For Love A battle for love Some days it doesn't feel like enough how do you stop the hands of fate fighting for footing struggling to hold on fighting against the need to hate not quite ready for battle yet here I am pushing myself through the darkness into your light trying so hard fighting this overwhelming ache I know I'm stronger Screaming I'm better than you You won't pervert my love nor ever take it away