Hating Myself

Emotions set adrift
feeling lost in a dark abyss

tears of loneliness quietly fall
I wonder if you ever knew me at all

I gave you my heart and my trust
now all I feel is shunned

I put on a pretty face
worst part is all I feel is hate

the worst kind of hate there is
the kind that tears you up inside

this is all my fault I know
I'm constantly telling myself so

you left me
now I just have to accept and let go

Sad thing is I'm not sure I can
Oh who the hell cares
I probably don't

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